Grading is finally over....phew

Today go school the time flew so fast because the pizza was in my mind lol. Teacher ordered a total of 12 pizzas!!!! And so many so many bottles of drinks. Having too many bottles of pepsi left, they started playing indian poker whereby the loser will have to drink. Haha, they drink until wanna vomit lol. Left one bottle and since i have wentaround throwing all the pizza boxes and didnt play the game, i was given the bottle of pepsi to be brought home. Thanks Mr Lee, really enjoyed ourselves with all the pizza. Eh friday one more time le lol, later he pocket broken one hole lol.

Yea, went back and today was freaking freaking scary, later then say ah wait lol. Sonia came over and she fell asleep again. Haiz, keep calling herself pig also lol. She really brought along her sleeping bug haha. Mmmmm, my mum came back so so so early today because i was going to have grading later in the night. Haiz, its very tiring and i was having the sleepy bug too. She rang the bell and both Sonia and I were shocked. I didnt expect it too la. Mmmmm, i thought for a while, ask my mum go wash the clothing and i told Sonia to sneak out. I forgot to tell my mum that she came over or should i say i didnt wanted to tell my mum that she came over.

Finally finished washing and we headed over to my grading area. It was really tiring and i met up with Thian Soon, my senior cum best friend cum long time helper. Really glad that i have knew him too. I must really treat him for lunch or a meal for helping me out so many time.

Mmmm, during grading did 6 instead of 3 patterns, fought 3 rounds of sparring and arm combat(mmmm, with knife....lucky no cuts) Mmmmm, patterns i did all out so yea really very tired. Sparring, ok this is bad and good. First round was a breeze, could do some nice and slick moves. Second round was a malay girl, man she is sick. She kicked under belt, anyhow kick and she just anyhow chiong, If can, i already whack her until she faint. Last guy was really strong and i was really tired also so yea but still quite ok i guess. Arm combat quite normal to me already and was fun ahah. Ok, im super confident that i will be able to pass this grading, come on ppl, give me your blesssings lol.

Ok for today, arm cannot move, stomach took a few shots of kicks. Arm super pain, the biceps area. Got hit is the hand by a punch...mmmm something wrong, shouldnt be pain one le but haiz, pain until cannot lift up. Typing the time put the hand on the leg then finger move around only lol. Yea but im alright and i can walk lol. Maybe later i will wrap up my arm just for fun lol. Ok im feeling quite exhausted and happy. Thanks Sonia for accompanying me today also, oh ya, if you managed to read this blog before you call me later, are you free tommorrow at around 4? Yee kiat ask me go down to singapore expo for the emerge fest. Go along with me ok?

Signing off,
one hand wing

Im seriously so so so into you now

Wow, i really love my life, there is someone that walked into my life and i know she will never leave. Thank you everybody (wanna kiss the phone? wanna kiss anybody?) lol. This phrase keep flashing through my mind.

All the things i also can remember very clearly. Racist, evil, childish, ego, grandpa pig. But yea i know haiz...so many thing in one but haha, its quite ok, i dont mind at all haha. The biggest loser, the yellow spongebob, the pikachu ahah, everything is so clear in my mind. Numbness in my legs, tickling, ear blowing, thigh pain or ticklish. Its just so fun and happy.

Today was a very slacky day. Went to school today for english oral and i commented on the system of the examiner's sitting but mmmm, she looked kinda piss but yea who cares, leaving a good impression is not important because i dont really like her face also lol. The passage reading is really well done i can say myself, the picture a bit mmmm, weird but the conversation to me was a breeze. About something like giving a person a second chance and the sports i do last time. Wah man so easy.

The class stayed back after oral to play cards...whats gotten into them man...all becoming gamblers already. I think the oral had burnt their brains....come on ppl, card is stupid stop playing all those stupid things.

Ok, this will most probably be a short entry because im playing wahahah, level 43 hunter already. So fast so furious, CHIONG MAN. I love you so much.

Signing off,
passionate wind

I think blogging has been difficult lately

If it wasnt for the games that i got hooked on again, it will be quite a breeze writing entries and posting pictures on friendster. I think i have to break the gaming habit again. It had been quite a while since i touched games but now because i was into hacking and botting again, my life is turned upside down again but yea lucky there are people around to help me get over this. My prelims are after the june holiday so yea i better buck up or not i will have to face a rain of arrows again from my parents. I dont wanna face all those red or unline marks in my report book again. Haiz....i will work hard i guess.

Mmmmm......POC 4pm town area....not able to go already la. They say the show is like 3 hours? man, i will most likely be killed by my mum if i get back so late. So sorry ah guys, is not the i dont wanna go but it is that i really cant go on weekdays.

Sonia came over after her o level chinese paper. Ok the question i saw was more difficult than what i got last year. Mine was like primary school chinese la, easy until can die, never get a1 can really jump and die le la. So yea, shes sleeping in a sitting position on my mattress. Guess she had overworked her brain and needed some rest. Yea, the air-con man is here too because my air con keep on tripping the whole house and NO air con la....how to sleep, i think i kinda spoilt already.

Yea, dont worry and just be happy ok Sonia. Everything will come out fine with your paper, I know you can do very well. I think today have a short entry will do, maybe another one in the night if im free but yea, adding some pictures on friendster today. It had been quite a while i guess. Take care everybody, love ya.

Signing off,
busy wind

Tiring day

Cip today. Went down to Toa Payoh to collect the "tin", chey it was a stupid bag la. Early know i bring my own plastic bag can already. Bai qun and Weiliang was with me also. Ate mashmallows that my friends brought at the chuch. So stupid la, they were waiting at the toa payoh methodist church for other ppl then they never tell us, make us wait there stupid stupid. Then off we go to Bishan.

Going to meet Delphine and Trudy for lunch. Delphine say she very long never see me already and wanted to have lunch with me. We were there quite early, wanted to watch a movie but haiz....too expensive already la so yea, never see at all. Went around wandering and went to the arcade after we changed out clothes. The game in there were freaking expensive, at least got 2x more expensive than the ones at ang mo kio la. No choice, just play a few rounds and also see some gay ppl playing the games there. Freaking sick la.

Met Delphine at 1.15pm and found out that Trudy wasnt able to come. She did not sleep for a few days and dont think she will be able to get up. Haiz, rest well, too stress about her assignment and homework already i think lol. Take care ah. Hey hey, but guess what, Santy was the one that replaced Trudy's presence. Santy came from nowhere and she joined us in the lunch at KFC(took really quite long to decide because everybody was like saying anything, you decide, how about you?) haha.

The queue was really very long la but yea got our food and finished it quite fast.....they 2 eat the buddy meal so slow....we finish they only started on one chicken each haha. Sonia called me to tell me that she reached Bishan too and she is going back to her old house to stun. Haiz, i wanted to accompany her but i dont i can because it would be quite weird to leave Weiliang and Bai qun with Santy and Delphine. So sorry so sorry Sonia, i really wanted to accompany you. Thanks for accompanying me that time too.

We returned our bag at 2.30 and came back again. Met up with Santy and Delphine again and walked around j8. Sonia finished stoning too and came to j8 to find me. I told her to walk across KFC and she saw me in an instance...no fair. She joined us and yea, she was talking to my friends. Thats good because from time with her i know that she is really shy and doesnt really talk a lot, even to me lol.

Santy and Delphine have to go down to singapore Expo for a service today so yea, off they went and how about us? we went down to ang mo kio for the arcade. Took 88 down and it was raining and everybody had to run in the rain la...ok not really run, just walk and haiz, I DONT WANNA GET WET LA....heng only a bit bit haha.

From the time we entered the arcade until we left i noticed something. I play point blank...Sonia was standing beside to see. I went to play a few rounds of Daytona, she was still standing and seeing. I went to top up my tapz card and also check the status of my card, she was walking around with me too. Played Time crisis(finished the whole game with 1 credit and the life remained was 3, amazing man), she was there again, standing and seeing me play. Oh my Sonia, do you not feel tired at all? We were at the bus stop waiting for bus and i sat down, she again standing there and smiling.... i asked quite a few questions like "you tired? you thirsty? you wanna sit?" Haiz, i dont know why her answer all only a smile or a shrud in the shoulder...mmm did i do someting wrong?

Slept on the bus and yea, she was alone...the way home. Sorry i cant send you back. Weiliang was with me and he came to my house and collected his laptop and off he goes too. Home sweet home. I went out for dinner at heartland mall and shopped around with my mother and murphy(my sister's friend). Leg really tired but i didnt complain la.

Home i was on my way and yea, it was really tiring. Thanks for accompanying me today Sonia, Weiliang, Bai qun, Delphine and Santy. I guess i kinda wasting Sonia's time haiz....she came from so far but i was only entertaining myself. So so sorry. Next time i will make sure i will entertain you ok?

Signing off,
lunch with the wind

Im sry for everything, i feel so useless

Its kinda weird yesterday, things i said were rather bad haiz. I really didnt mean it. I just hope that you will fogive me and everything will be fine. Slept quite late thinking about things i have said and the things that i need to stud for the exams. Nothing much la except to remember some phrases that can enhance the language and more vocabulary.

Went school today and asked about the format of letter writing. Eh...so easy, i already know only forget a bit a bit i think. Went to the examination hall with only a small pencil box and my brain. I set there all ready for the paper. English Paper 1 came in and there is stood. 5 questions gleeming in my eyes.

1)shit cannot remember
2)relate a happy occasion but you have negative feelings instead
3)forgive and forget. State your view about it.
4)crossroad
5)decribe a rainy day at home

Haiz the letter was quite ok but nothing much to write so mmmm, forgot to write summary also then just end it simply la. Managed to use a few phrases that i remembered. (We ran past tidals row of houses like bait fishes leaping for their lives) (He followed the rhythm and syntax of my speech in his voice) (my thigh-muscles were fluttered with fatigue) wanted to use another one (he gave him a styptic blink to tell him that he should have said something better) but forget haiz nvm.

Later got a short break then went to eat, come back then paper 2. This paper is a killer i tell you. Stupid questions or should i say easy questions, hard answers!!! It was totally ununderstandable. What hunter what irony and mindless thing....couldnt get any of it la. Haiz....nothing to say le la, really got no mood to study chinese for tmr.

Went j8 later and chatted for quite a while. Laughed a lot which made me feel much better but yea, i think its quite nice having friends around too. Sonia was also cheering me up in sms form, thanks a lot.

I didnt mean to hurt you in anyway. Im really sorry, pls forgive me. I really love you a lot and want to be with you forever. Dont take it to heart pls.

Signing off,
moodless wind

Selfish thinking or dont bother?

Today was a great day in school. Morning from 7am can sleep until 8am, teacher not here today for geography so can sleep from 8am to 8.50am. Chinese lesson so teacher let us self-study, too many chinese period already so yea i sleep again from 8.50am to 9.40am. 9.40am recess yea and then from 10am to 12pm watch movie. The movie screening today is Cassandra Crossing. It has a no link start, a no link content and plot and a no link ending....didnt know how it manage to become a movie. Maybe it is just because its suppose to be a sex train( or should i say too many sexual things happening) but of course cannot see one la or not the teacher where got let us see. But all i can say that it is stupid and not nice, really not nice at all. After that is maths, go throught the maths paper that i did quite well in. 24/30 permutation and combination test. I was quite happy and contented about it. Later asssembly, slept all the way because i totally got no idea what was happening and it was really very boring.

After school, got extra ss lessons. Mmmmm, it was really fast, only half and hour and the teacher was teaching like a bullet train. She thinks that everybody will absorb that fast meh but haiz, dont care her la, the best is that i can go home can already. Yea, backed home and as usual, i was on the computer again, pqing with one computer and trying my best to level my assasin with the other. Left a few percent only so i can do the level 51-70 pq in obis. Haiz, i never did it before so mmm, will be quite noob at the start i think. Got the patches for the hack already so yea, even if it is super difficult, i wont die haha. Dont say i cheater or hacker hor, its just for great fun.

Waited for my mother to come back and cook dinner. Going to eat some great food. Finish eating already as usual so must do the housework. I washed the floor, washed the plates, cleaned the table, boiled water and threw the rubbish. While washing the floor, i accidentally knock over all the toothpick and since its all wet, must throw all of them away, cannot use already mah. It was under the table quite deep so i used my hands to dig it out. My mother kept rushing me so i just drag everything out as quickly as possible. A few toothpicks just pierced into me....i gave a loud shriek. Ok the pain is wow, sharp sia. My mother just ask me to faster and scold me stupid. She told me go take plastic bag to put all in. I go get myself a plaster after that then she scold me again. Ask me why i so slow, dont know how to throw the rubbish is it.... i was like, wah lao eh, i here bleeding you still dont care, still ask me throw rubbish while im putting a plaster on my wound. Haiyah, dont care la.

Just managed to finish everything and went up. Tmr got english prelims....friday got higher chinese. English i not scared because i know my english standard quite ok but chinese ah....mmmm the possiblity of me passing is quite low but haiz, i have no choice but to try my best. Yea all the best to me and good luck to myself lol.

Yea, this saturday got cip and you all know, where im going during a cip lol. Arcade and more fun ahahah. This saturday i think weiliang and bai qun going with me as usual and maybe someone else, ask first and maybe can comfirm only on friday.... haha, hope can go la.

Spending more time with the person you like, spending time on the things you like to do and just loving everything that you must treasure is very important. I wanna give everyone that is with me or was once with me a thank you and my respect. Even if you have stabbed me, even if you hated me or even if i did you wrong, i only wish to thank you that i have grown up and became much stronger because of the hardship and the obstacles that lay in front of me. I never blame you all, i never hated you all, i never meant to say things that hurt you all. Forgive me if i have ever do so.

Missing you always, i really love you, signing off,
restful wind

Maple is weird for me? but mmm, im into it again

A cute pink monkey :)

Got patch yesterday night and i was quite piss because i was enjoying botting and hacking. Hey but the patch was quite good because the obis party quest is out...level 51-70. I was really hesitant to level my assasin because it is level 50 and i thought that it would be quite bored that i will no longer be able to pq during level 51 so yea kept it at this level for quite some time.

Its quite amazing how botting and hacking is. Its only been like one day and my archer is level 21. Wasted the bot and hack cannot use already or not i sure use it until very high level or maybe until it get ban unfortunately lol.

Its been a while since i have added some pictures for my blog. Let me try see whether it works lol. Ok it does and not bad actually. Going to add it up to friendster also. Its really cute also. My favourites are monkey and dragon but pink is kinda special so yea, its really nice.

Had training again today but it was really fun. Had speed, accuracy and strength competition. Kicking of sandbag, targets and the timer and many things la. It was funny la. Didnt have much injuries only a bit of aches and tired.

Oh, somebody dont want tell me the question that allowed stoning. I love stoning too but mmmm...why dont tell me!!! haha, nvm, i can find my own things to stone about. Tmr got extra lessons after assembly and i have to get straws for my sister i think. She still not sure whether she wanna do stars for her boyfriend or just buy a perfume that he used finished already for his birthday. Ok the perfume is quite expensive so yea, i think thats why she is needing a lot time for thinking whether which one is better.

Yep, thats all for today and i will try my best to add more picture ok. I really love you and im serious. You mean a lot to me and trust is what i really have given to you.

Signing off,

monkey wind(pink)

Its back!!!! the one...the only...TABLET PC

Yea, went to school today thinking that i was really fine. Didnt had any stomach pains mmmm only once in the moring before going to school. Brought my hushbrown with me because didnt really had the time to eat in the morning and i really had no appetite.

Reached school already, man, stomach pain then yea go to the toilet once. During national enthem somemore and then i was forced to stay in class before im allowed to go because it will be weird to see a guy running across so many classes to go to the toilet. Tahan a bit then haha, finally went. Another time was before recess. Ok i know i was still not feeling well so i told the chinese teacher to sign me out after i collected my tablet pc but she had no power to do so because she is just my subject teacher. So yea no choice, had my recess already, gotten my tablet from the technical centre then told my form teacher that i really needed to go home.

He realised that i had an mc with me then he told me i should have stayed at home. He drove me out to the bus stop because he wanted me to help him buy eye drops beause he was feeling quite well, eyes red red i think(see girl bathe lol). No la, just kidding only. He sent me somewhere near the hdb flat near to the bus stop that i was going to take a bus from. Waited for the bus for a while only and yea, on my way home, YEA!!!

Reached home realy early...about 11am? Haiz, they still watching movie in school. Its really boring for the higher chinese member as they will have to do stupid things during the chinese intensive as mmmm, we dont have any papers to take la. Ok, I was really bored so i took a nap when i realise that Trudy was only able to come about 3.30 which is like woah....didnt know it was so late that her school is released lol. On both my computers after i woke up at 1 plus. Main computer doing pq in maple while the other one is botting to train up my archer. Not bad le, bot a while only and im already level 19. Amazing right. I know ppl will say im a hacker, a cheater or anything la but i tell you that when you really get your hands on this time of engines and bots, you will be shock of how much fun you can get from all these. Believe me, seeing is believing.

Trudy called me and i made my way out to the bus stop to pick her up. Climbed the overhead bridge only and she keep complaining that she got no stamina. Its like a bit only and she say she panting haha, really proven that she had never been exercising and can say that she old already la. She didnt really sweat but i was the one sweating like crazy. I brought her around the house and she was amazed by the size and the cleaniness of the house even though i do not have a maid. My mum is the amazing person that cleaned up the house so yea all credit must be given to her.

After teaching me a maths for 2 hours, i think she is going to vomit blood lol. I dont know how to do almost practically everything because my foundation is really very weak. Hey, Trudy im really sry la, i didnt mean to know nothing but yea, im just really weak in a maths. She got herself food, drink and she kinda entertain herself while im doing a paper by asking me to stone there while she draw me. Mmmm, its quite nice and i asked her to scan and send me lol. Hope i can get it soon.

Sonia, 38.7 degrees is really high. Must remember to take care, drink water and also rest if you really need. Mock SPA is really easy and also being so smart, it should be a breeze to you so dont worry ok. You will do very well one. Dont put too much pressure on yourself or not your illness will worsen so just relax and stay healthy and happy. Oh, Trudy had also agree to teach us during the school holidays. Isnt she cool, haha, must torture her with all the questions and let her suffer wahahaha. Ok im not that bad but tell you all something so great, she dont wanna charge me for the tution!!!! How can that be omg... i was quite amazes also. Yea, really thanks a lot. Eh, Sonia also very great, she had agreed to drill me intensively during the school holidays and study with me everyday when im free. She also never charge me. My life is filled with special people, people who care and people who are willing to sacrifice for me. I hope i can do so too, i really want to help them in any ways possible.

My Mum(greatest person is my life), without her, everything is impossible. My Sis(she is lame and we just can communicate so well and i can share with her everything). Sonia(she is always there when i needed someone, she is cute, smart and so caring, can share everything as well). Azlin(my best friend since young. She is tall, i mean real tall, i can share problems with her and yea, she lames a lot too). Trudy(a church friend that i know recently, agree to teach me without any charges and teached patiently). Yee Kiat, Delphine, Sing Xuan, Felicia, Santy, Rui Fen(more friends that really care and they always show their concern). Victor, Tedmond, Russell, Zi Xiong, Toon Ee, Wei Da, Sherwin(woah, they make my life so cool and they are the ones that really stood by me in times of physical trouble, you know what i mean lol)

For those that i forgot to mention in the blog...mmm im really sry, maybe i have forgotten accidentaly to put your name in the list. Dont be angry ok. I know that everyone had played a part in my life and everyone is really important too. Be happy and take care everyone. I love you.

Signing off,
Appreciating wind

The toilet and i had became good friends...

I was not feeling well since yesterday so yea didnt had the strength or time to come online for an entry. Hey, its really unexpected that i will get food poisoning. Went toilet all the way in the night and i didnt manage to get any sleep at all. Slept at 7pm, woke up at 9pm (1st time), 11.30pm (2nd time) 2.30am (3rd time), 4.40am (4th time), 6.50am (5th time), 8.30am (6th time), and i woke up to went to the doctor but before going to the doctor, went to the toilet about 3 times again. What went in just came out, esp water.

Doctor gave me an injection and medicine. Haiz, wanted to go toilet again but but but i ren, i ren all the way from the doctor to my home and ran to the toilet. Phew, lucky the distance was short or not i think i will just do it in the car lol. Ok it was quite torturous actually.

Finally able to take a nap after i come home as i was feeling much better but slept about 3 hours then i needed the toilet again. Haiz, i think the toilet have became my good friend but i do not wish for it to be my sworn brother lol.

Oh ya, 19 may, went to Ang Mo Kio and watched blades of glory. Played arcade and stone around a bit i think. Ok, blades of glory is a sure must see, its funny, its sick and its freaking hilarious. 2 men skating and their moves are so dirty i tell you. The things they do are amazing and the things they say are dirty and stupid. Some example is the crotch stand, the kicking and collision of the crotch in the final moves. Man, it really hurts i guess.

Received a cute little pink monkey from someone and the note attached was simple so amazing, i could say that i was speechless. Woah, its really special. Even thought its pink but i like it a lot. Mmmmm, its just cute haha. Very exhausted that day, didnt really had the mood to do things but hey, i had fun lol.

Sry that i had made you worry. Dont worry, i will take care of myself and its been great. I know my blog is filled with words but mmmm, i dont really know how to upload pictures so hehe, sry ah.

Signing off,
recovering wind

Catholic high? why catholic high?

Today is freaking stupid i tell you. WHO raised their hands saying wanna take the test in the afternoon when you can take in during the morning. It was kinda stupid la. The paper was really very easy and i only took 1 hour to finish both the comprehension and the summary. If the test could be done in the morning, everyone dont have to stay until 3.40 today la. What a waste of time. Stupid ppl all so selfish, they wanna go cca later then they raise up the hands. Teacher only see half the class here and only a few hands then she say majority win....have test later one shot from 2-3.40.... Ok i was freaking angry as i wanted to go Plaza Singapura to get something today and because of this i went there very late and almost unable to go training because of that.

Ok but nvm, today was quite ok after the test. There was one disney audition for those ppl who thinks that their english is super good and likes to express themselves. Timothy was super ass la, he signed up zi xiong, Tedmond and Toon ee but he didnt signed up himself. And there he was jumping around and commenting on the things that they will ask.

He say if get selected, the pay would be $60 an hour, that is a huge amount i can tell you. But i think they only give you the interval between shows to appear and say some stupid speech. We were practically laughing all the way how Timothy say it.

" Aiyah, ok guys, welcome to disney channel ah... you know there got many many show lined up for you only. Next one is king possible(should be Kim possible) and then later got the green colour fighting one la, you know the shell walk slow slow one, ninja turtle ya ya." Wah we laughed until cannot tahan. But haha, he last also get sabo in because he sign 3 ppl and the 3 ppl signed him up too. I think he really make a full out of himself inside but cant really go in and see because the audition was in the music room and everybody have to wait outside.

Went plaza sing, didnt manage to get what i intended to buy so just bought something else. Mmmmm, not expensive but very bulky.... wanted to try wrapping it up at home. First time i wrap things lol and.... there was not enough wrapping paper so yea.... 1 side not covered. Ok i will make a fool out of myself oh my... I hope that person wont be angry or laugh at me when i give the presents.

Ok came back and waited for my mum to come back. She bought nasi bryani. It was HUGE... so many so many rice and so big so big chicken.... cannot finish eating. Went training and ok, today training was really tough. Having injuries from ytd, it kinda worsen a bit only, really a bit only but i think my leg gonna have blue black because got leg to leg collision and it hurts. Nvm, nvm, i think i really dont know how to look after myself but im really sorry ok, i didnt mean it. I have to train in order to be stronger and also for the advantages of being strong like being able to protect somebody, being able to carry things that people cannot and lastly people will not bully you.

Ok, i dont think i should push myself too much anymore or not i will surely break down one fine day. There may be a day where i really lie down there and my body wont allow me to get up. I may be dead but my body would not function maybe due to a knock out or overstraining my muscles and my veins. I know the risk in it. I have to look after myself for somebody too, who wants to see the other partner hurt, who wants to see the other partner being down and who wanna not help the other partner get up on his or her feet. This part too emotional oh my lol.

Yea, i think i should be stopping here today. But theres a question i would like you all to ponder, why do people wanna inflict threat on others? Is it because they feel insecure themselves? This is for you all to think and reflect whether you have been the one bullying others or being bullied. So fast and it has been a month, wow. I cant believe that it is so fast. Forever it will be, haha.

Signing off,
injured wind

Back early today haah

Today was freaking boring in chinese. 2 hours to go through 2 papers...its like hello, higher chinese here, whats with us doing intensive now when our exams are like so far away. Haiz after that ss test on housing. Ok didnt really do very well as the points i cant really elaborate it and the time given was quite short. After ss test, maths test. So difficult la, on combination and permutation. I think can pass but cannot score really well so just pray hard i guess. After that no geog and i thought can be able to go home early but but but....maths teacher call me back to have a maths remedial. I seriously hate a maths i got no idea why mmmm maybe its because i totally dont understand anything at all and because i dont have the secondary 3 foundations la.

Left at 3 and Tedmond dad gave me a lift to seragoon mrt, how fortunate am i lol. Lucky have his dad to fetch or im prepare to get super wet. On the way in the car, there was a huge huge puddle of water. The car drove through it and was blinded in water. Really cannot see at all la but lucky the dad stood calm and slowly stepped the brakes to allow the water to clear from the screen. No care...phew or not sure bang because the road was really screwed. Another lucky incident i guess. Dropped at seragoon mrt and walked home. Still got a bit of gap need to use umbrella because how can you expect a linkway or shelter to be all the way to a landed house....

Reached home and i have training again today. Haiz, very tiring le, everyday train and train, not tired or wont die is fake one la. Ok ok, still got a maths to complete so well, i better get going and finish my work too.

Take care, you seemed really tired Sonia. Dont fall ill or not it wont be really nice lol. Of course ill not nice, what am i talking lol. Just remember to rest early and Happy birthday Amanda(Felicia's sister). Yee kiat send me a message to wish her happy birthday and i was like totally WHO IS THAT? haha, yuan lai ru chi lol. Didnt know until he said it was felicia's sis. Oh ya, adding on Tedmond got raped again in class and i just stand there and look...i feel so bad oh my... why didnt i join in? No la, im not sick lol i mean why didnt i help(tedmond) lol not help the rest.

Yea, i think thats all for today...maybe if im free later then i write another entry but where got so bo liao...after training got things to write again. Ha, the fighters there at my training place is freaking fast but mmmm, strength wise i think they better have to train up or not they cant really get a medal. Yea, all jiayou jiayou and take care. Random ending again ba. I love you and im serious about it(you know who)

Signing off,
Early breeze(lightning and thunder)

Ss essay takes my brain away!!!

Today in school very funny. Zi xiong held onto toon ee's shoulder and they were pushing each other. Testing each others strength while toon ee resisting the push. It was after a few seconds where we heard a pssssssssssst. Everybody turned to look at them. Guess what? Toon ee's shirt tear ahahah. It was freaking sexy and stupid. He was also laughing at himself and he took the stapler to staple back his "arm".

Reached home and found a funny game in my com. Its about world domination and i am suppose to eliminate my enemies by blasting them with nuclear bombs and sending troops to infiltrate but its like must take turns one...a bit bo liao to an extent.

Ok didnt do my ss essay today and i still havent study for tmr's housing chapter le. Like that die le la because still got 2 essays that will be testing. Finished the both essays in a very "short time" you all understand.

Hey Sonia, cheer up. Chinese i know has been a boring subject and i know you love it last time but because of the switch of teacher which gave you a change in opinion. I know you are not feeling so well this few days because the lessons were giving you goosebumps when the teacher laughed. Dont have to worry so much la, anything im still here to listen to anything you wanna say. If you dont mind, hearing me crap will cheer you up too i guess. Just try and pay attention and if you are really bored in class, try to sleep(i know you wont) or maybe can sms me too(i know you wont too) so yea i not sure how to really cheer you up but yea, must remember to take care of yourself.

Signing off,
the tired tired wind

Quite a tiring day but yea its ok

School as boring as ever but haiz, 2 hours everyday for chinese need to do mock paper. Whats this la, waste so much time when we not even taking the examinations. Its really difficult you know. Everyday one i think i will die.

School ended at 1.40, wanted to ask Sonia over to study but her intensive chinese is until 3.30. Wow, thats kinda late i can say. So went home, do stuff, retrieve all my data from my mmc because it suddenly become haywire. I lost all my messages....im kinda sad actually but lucky i manage to get the pictures back. Seriously got good pictures i dont wanna lose. Know what i mean lol. Songs all gone but heng...the songs can get from the computer so yea, shouldnt be much of a problem.

Waiting for my mum to come home for dinner. I cooked the rice already so yea, waiting for her to come back and cookt he curry. Didnt eat curry for quite some time. Later got training again. I dont know why whenever theres training, i dont feel like going...maybe just because im lazy or im really very tired. But haiz...who knows, who cares, i just have to go and train until i break down someday but yea dont worry, i will take care of myself.

Hope to be able to complete my ss work. 2 essays and i havent even started, thats really bad because i dont think i have the time to do it anymore. Ok, i think im prepared to die. If anybody is so kind to do it for me, pls refer to SS TYS you know the brown one page mmmm...12 or 13 the structure essay about good governance. 3a and 3b i think. Haiz, nvm la, i know nobody know how to do because maybe its just not learnt yet. Dont worry, i will try my best to finish it.

Ok, im kinda hungry so yea haha, a hungry man is an angry man. Thanks and im trying my best not to say sry haha.

Signing off,
the hungry wind

What a news i gotten...

Today school was quite boring and i got myself 1 hour to sleep. 7-8am english reading period was a pure period for relaxation haha you know sleeping very soundly without any teacher coming into the classroom to check on us. 8-8.50 chinese, 8.50-9.40 english. Recess time will be from 9.40 to 10am every day for the next 2 weeks. Its like what the....30 mins already consider very short because need to queue together with the secondary 3 but now left 20 mins....pathetic.

After recess 2 hours of so call intensive chinese because o level coming. Eh, being higher chinese student not bad le, can use this 2 hours to watch movie. Today watch Jet li's so called best movie, no string attached, no fake moves all real kung fu. Haha, i was literally laughing the whole show because i didnt know Shaolin's martial art was so "dirty". They keep attacking the sensitive area you know lol. Wasnt able to sleep in the auditorium because firstly it was hot and the movie was too lame and everybody keep laughing so haha, watched the whole movie and i think i enjoyed it i guess.

Went back got double chem and then pure. Got scolded from our geog teacher because got som retarted person comment totally negatively about her teachings on the survey form. Eh ppl, use your brain la, she is a good teacher, HOD of Geog, even though you dont like the way she drill us or scold us, she is jsut damn good la. Haiz, she got really angry and said that if we dont appreciate her, she will be teaching other calsses instead. Ok, i will surely beg her to take me in if i were to change classes.

After that hehe, went walking with BLACKIE. So cute la the little dog. Dont tell you all whose one. Didnt know blackie was so hyper, it tried jumping on me quite a few time and when i let it lick my hands, he start licking from my hands to the legs(skipping obviously the middle part la lol) Slept again in a very comfortable spot haha, cute just simply cute. I just feel that suddenly the spot became mine...eh sry ah, if you had to move away because i was occupying too much place lol. Cute, very cute, if you know what i mean.

Ok, took a bus home and i slept in it again. I think today is the day i slept the longest. Phew, got down the bus went home and waited for my mum to cook. My mum got back and she called my dad to talked over matters. I heard from my mum that my dad wants to marry the lady...!!?!??! That is totally incorrigable. The lawyer had stated that if she was to marry my dad, the house half will belong to her....WTF is this man. HALF LE, she doesnt even deserve a 1mx1m land from my house. If she really dare to do it, i will wreak havoc like there was no tmr.

I just dont understand why my father like her. She is cunning, shrewd, slutty, bitchy, irresponsible, irritating, annoying, selfish, retarted ass. She is obviously aiming for the money and the things that my father have.... Eh tell you all la (ESP HER) my mum is the one that is rich, not my dad, what my dad have is only his hands his legs and nothing else. He where got money, the car, the house, even most of our expenditure is from my mother. My mother dont show it because it is just giving my father face but i dont think my father is appreciating it so why bother. Im not afriad to tell ppl that. That LADY is super dirty i tell you. She slept with so many man before...my dad's cousin last time, an indonesian rich guy last time and her ex husband who even have 2 kids. She doesnt take care fo the kids either, what type of mother is this la, so stupid.

I shallnt get angry over retarted beings. Hearing or even seeing them just makes my blood boil. If she thinks she really is that great, just get the hell lost from anywhere near my house and work yourself out, who cares even if you go be a prostitute, it wont really matter to you much.

Too many insulting words, so sinful but if i dont type things out i will just explode. No name stated so i dont think that this is illegal. If that person know who she is then too bad lor, ownself deserve it one.

Sry ah ppl, didnt mean to blog an entry like this today. Its just that i feel that its too unfair letting ppl reap what my mum sow so you know, i just have to blast everything out. I will never let her in, not even a single step. She dare to step in, i will throw her into the rubbish bin and never to let her out of it.

Signing off,
the pissed off wind

What has gotten into me...was i really mad?

12th May, I came back from school and i thought everything was alright. Ok, nothing of alright came into the picture. Ate lunch before i came back. My mum called me to the kitchen and we started talking. She knew that i didnt went for training( i think its my sis that told her), she knew i went to attend something on church because she checked by bag and found that song list and she started scolding me. She asked me why i lied to her and she said that i have gone overboard. She told me that it was my instruction that told her that i was not attending lessons but it was obviously not la. The conversation is as followed.

"Your instructor told me in the afternoon that you didnt went for training. I wanted to trust my son so i let you tell me everything first before i come and tell you that i had already known the truth." My mum said.

"Cannot be la, i call him now, see what he say to you." I said after much talking from her saying about me getting ignorant and rude.

I got a call from my instructor and he told me he said nothing of a sort. Hearing this, i shouted at my mother and told her that she was lying also. At this time, she twisted her words saying that my instructor told her in the morning that i didnt attend lessons for the past week. I was shocked to hear that because i did attend training the past week. I shouted at her that why she could lie about things then why still come and bother about the things i lied. With this i went up and into my room. She asked me to bathe and change but i refused...she dont even allow me to change in my room...only in the toilet. I just went to the toilet unwillingly and changed. She went down to call my instructor while i was hearing everything from the top.

Ok i seriously did it on impulse, i just took my wallet, without my handphone and no keys either, i went down, opened the whole gate and just walked away. Went over to some unkonwn place with my sis behind my back, with that i walked over the overhead bridge so that she wont be able to follow me because she was afriad of heights.

I went under a block and stoned there for a few hours...i thought of everything that i have done but because even when at the time i was living, my mum screamed at me. I thought that it was really the end of the line whereby i will not go back anymore. I walked around a bit more and decided to go Weiliang's house. When i reached there, his father's back image was the first i saw and i hesitated whether to press the doorbell because i didnt really wanted to bother him and i couldnt call them either. Finally, i just walked up to the door and pressed it. His father turned and was quite surprised to see me. He opened the door and told Weiliang to wake up(seriously i dont know he was still sleeping because it was already like 2pm lol). Eh sry weiliang, i didnt mean to wake you up but really thanks a lot ytd.

Played and entertain myself with the laptop in his house, drank cereal and told the dad i was going to stay over. I lied again when he asked whether my parents know that i will be staying over that day. Sry uncle, i know you treat me like your son since i have known your son really long. Im very close to them and they also treat me very well, i really respect them and im really sry for telling a lie.

Managed to get Sonia and she came over to accompany me too. Ate dinner over at weiliang's house and because i didnt want to lie, i told weiliang's father i had to go now and not going to stay over. I walked from Hougang to Serangoon(1 hour plus plus) very long walk but Sonia was with me. She was afraid that i did not want to go home. Ok i was quite touched by that.

Ok la, i stoned through the night after Sonia left. Didnt really do anything but stoning... Dont have a phone, cannot get a phone so got nothing to do also. Morning(yea you know those who know where i am), bathed and went out to East Coast. Wanted to cycle but my back really hurt(ok i say a little only but yea it was quite bad), sat at the stone seat and stare into the sea again(with Sonia again, i tell you she really is so great, i called her in the morning and she immediately say can). Went to Mcdonalds after that and go into a bowling alley. See many playing and was quite tempted but never bring socks...strictly with socks only so haiz...cannot play.

Fetched her back and before sending her back, we stoned together at the bus stop. Haha, i didnt know there was another person that could stone with me so well. Ok it was quite a time killer but i think that i have sort out my thinkings. I went home after i fetched her back and the first thing i told my mum was that im sorry for what i have done and Happy Mother's Day. She cried and i wanted to but but but i held it back. It was yea...barbecue and there was quite many ppl here. Murphy and Sarah(couple from China, me and my sis's best friends), my sis's boyfriend, my dad, my mum, my sis and me. Really enjoyed the dinner.

Sonia and Weiliang(thanks a lot a lot a lot INFINITE times) Santy, Yee kiat, Trudy, Delphine and Felicia(Sorry about not being able to pick up phones, unable to comfirm timings and not being able to attend the servive, i hope you all can understand)

Today's entry is really long so if you wanna read, im really sry too. It might bore you because this is 2 days entry. Im just so sorry about everything. Sonia, take care too, thanks so much for being there for me when i really needed someone.

Signing off,
The sincere wind

Almost died again...i need help, pls dont tell mum!!!

Today school was another day of mischief, fun and a bit of sad la today. Teacher giving out the whole class chocolates. He go down the row and called the names....he missed mine and totally forget about it. Me only le, thats like wah lao eh, why me only. Aiyah, i also dont bother going up to get the chocolate from him. If it was on accident then let it be la, i dont want later he accuse me of taking another one.

Finish school, went home changed and make my way down to Paya lebar. So early and eat long john first. Finish already actually feel like eating ice cream but hehe, Sonia bought a cheese pancake and eat it like hamster. Damn funny as she cant really put bigger chunks into her mouth i think lol. Eh dont angry hor, just little smal comment only. Went walking around indutrial park, katong mall and just wandering around because was a little bored. Stayed at the 4th floor of katong mall and stun there, looking at the wall and stoning. I didnt know like that also can kill time haha. New findings.

After that left eh place at 6 and on my way to Buona Vista...ok if thats how it is spell. Haha, reached there and all i saw was a small group of ppl standing there to wait. Eh, Trudy, say take mrt suddenly take cab and somemore say on the way only. Lucky never stupid stupid wait there for her or not we sure die ahah.

Sing song, pray, laugh, talk talk and more la. So many ppl there and i was quite alone when they pray because i dont really believe in it so mmmm, sry ah guys. They sing i just sing la because the tune not bad le and the voices combine together is really very cool. After that still got chocolate fundae but but but first batch of chocolate burnt then the machine requiring quite a lt of chocolate cannot really work after that so yea....quite wasted. Ok i was going to head home at 9 but because Edmund(cell group leader) offer to give me a lift home so i stayed until 9.35pm. Ok i was scared because my sis called me to check on where i am because she was near my training area and i wasnt there. Haiz, get caught not going again...whats this la, where got so unlucky one.

Ok nvm la, i just hope she will not tell because you know how nasty my mum can get if she gets to know this. I just really hope that nothing will happen. Its not true i wanna lie but its just that i dont wanna not be able to go out.

Signing off,
The sad wind

Paper checking

Haiz, waste so much time again and there i was laughing at the stupid mistake i made on my maths paper. We just dont give a damn to what the teacher was saying because i know how to do the paper, it was only the time and carelessness that drove me up the roof lol.

Today class was super scary. Morning only got history esaay to do. Write about 5 sides of paper, later english also another one...comprehension. Recess time at least got some time to rest but hands were obviously aching la. Go back, social study SBQ test...WTH la. Wrote another 3 sides of paper. I was the only one that finish 4 questions while the rest did only 3. Required amount to do was 3 la but if never finish tmr must do again so i just dont care, finish everything can already. I thought everything was over as my hands were in great pain...another shocker came in.... Geography Mastery review on energy source. I look at the paper and stun. We were given 50 mins to finish all the question but lucky it was open book test or not i tell you i will sit there and cry(havent study and revise anything about it yet). Phew, managed to write another 3 sides of paper. Imagine the pain in the hands that i was feeling. The amount of paper i used and the ink that have gone into the paper. Couldnt express it la.

Finally can go home after script checking at around 4.15pm. Went toilet then my friends were pushing here and there in the toilet so i just took out my phone and tape it down. Eh no dirty scene, no porn no nothing...only wilson(superstar) and Aldred pushing and shouting"GAY AH GAY AH" because Aldred kicked Wilson's butt and also hugged him when they going into the toilet. It was damn funny haha, next time if can then i post the video but i dont think its so nice because they might get angry.

Got back early for once lol and NO MORE SELF STUDY wooooooooooooo. Ok i was freaking happy because i can go out and go home more. But....have training again. I think i will break down one fine day. The training if simple simple then i got nothing to say la but everytime go training sure get injury not due to overstretching myself or injury from sparring. Im not a living superman ok. Nvm, my mum wont understand how i feel unless she can endure it herself. Tmr got training again but i think im not going, going for a cell group meeting that my friends has been pestering me to attend. Dont really know how to reach that place but just try la, cannot reach then just head home and sleep i guess.

Yea, today's entry a bit long again. I will take care of myself dont worry ok. Sonia, all exams over already, just enjoy yourself and get your well deserve rest. For the rest whose exams are over, play hard too but dont forget to revise a bit also or not will forget one lol. For those who still have exams, press on, persevere all the way and you will surely be able to make it. Im getting closer and closer each day to type what i wanna type. Approval granted so i will release things day by day, no rush at all lol. (dont understand nvm, the day will come when everything comes to light)

Signing off,
The living superwind

Normal day but human teddy?

Haha, Tedmond is back and he got make fun of again right from the start of the day. He told us he was having running nose and the liquid from the nose went into the forehead which caused intense pain. The first things we ask is sure or not? or is it the oil went up while you sleeping. Everyone just love to make fun of him because he doesnt really mind i think. Today i think its the oil that gave him problems controlling all the vulgarities that is coming out from his mouth. He speak so much of it until the teacher ask him to go to the toilet and reflect but dont get stuck in it lol. The teacher is also evil lol, making fun of him.

Assembly today was hell boring. Some stupid project work done by those lower primary and so many prize to present...still tell us short prize presentation. Wasted a lot of my time. I was rushing home ok.

"Ok...dry and wet kitchen? Oh my...climb everyday will be tiring. Wah, the stitch so big...i think i sit together with it, it will also look bigger than me. Hypnosis fan in my house makes everyone sleep." This may seem no sense at all but haha, just wrote it for fun.

Mum super accurate to come back and lucky i predicted her timing also. She cooked porridge for me and i have to eat my sister share also because she going to have overtime and not be having dinner at home. Ok the porridge was simply delicious but i could still feel in swirling around in the stomach. Eat too much le la. Haiz, heard my mum say i have to go training again tmr...i havent recover and i have to go again? whats this man....

She thinks im some kind of superman or wonderwoman? ok wonderwoman sounds wrong lol. Yea, but what to do, she is not the one training so i think she wont know how it feels. Yea, i have to train again tmr and i hope this time i wont make the pain feel worse or not i think i really dont need to walk already. Take care, stay happy and enjoy your time since the exams are over. May joy be a part of your life. About the human teddy, i really want a hug, didnt manage to but just because of the cuteness and adorableness(if this word even exist) or maybe just because of the love.

Signing off,
hugable wind

A happy but also a bit disappointed

Miracle ppl, my photographic memory had worked miracles that day during the ss and geog paper. I SCORE FULL MARKS. Amazing le. Today pe was quite stupid, the team we play against were very active while my team...eh ppl i want defender you all chiong le.... ok like that how to play la lol.

Ok i didnt know i would get pass things really fast and i managed to pull my self together. Maybe its because my friends are all around me and im glad that everything just turn out fine. Today had oral exam. 9 9 11....altogether 29/40. It was kinda sucky because i was expecting myself to score better but the teacher say my th sound not consistent then i made an expression in front of her(snake lol) keep on sticking my tounge in and out in and out. The picture was quite a breeze but the conversation then a bit difficult la. I use some crappy things when he ask about my personal experience on tricks played on my friend. Ok that wasnt really very easy at all. I Didnt really score well for that part...haiz.

Played chess while waiting for my friends to finish their oral. Lucky i not last one, or not i think i dont have to go home already. My friend let me go first lol, in front of him i can say lol. Played chinese chess and i dont know why im like a crazy guy. I dont care what move i take but i just played like Blitz. Speed, no brain and just for the fun of it but i win all 5 rounds played because they were shock at things i do. I can sacrifice a horse for a stupid soldier, how ridiculous is that lol.

Went home, rushed through dinner that i cook my self and went to whampoa to train again. Oh my, there they are, singapore national fighter. Their speed and reaction is amazing but i think they lack power. My kicks are slower than theirs, my reaction are slower than them but my kicks are way more powerful and more accurate when it comes to kicking the face lol. Pulled my hamstring or i tear it i also not sure, better not tear or not later i cannot walk. Ok, im feeling a lot of pain but i could not do anything much because massage only brings more pain to it. Haiz, somebody said about not being able to walk after every training was true. Im sry im unable to look after myself again, i really am. Thats why i need constant reminder but haiz...i always push myself to the max until i break down or injure myself. I think i will die because of this one day. Nvm, tmr will be a better day and congratulate to those who have finish their exam while those who are currently still having their exams, all the best and study hard.

Signing off,
the reminded wind

Finally, everything came out...in tears

I thought today would be another usual day but haiz, in class got raping incident again. Whacking, constrains and many other sick actions but i was not involve in it. I didnt really bother, only stood there, looked at the helpless guy and laugh. Went self study in the afternoon because i didnt go for it for quite some time. Because of mock, remedial and just plain lazy i guess. Played in the self study area instead. Rubber band, hand phone, squeezeing ppl til they drop and many more. It was just hell fun.

Went home as usual, reached home around 5.30pm and took a shower. I took my time and also watched spongebob. Heard the doorbell rang and i know its my mum...turn off the tv unwillingly and went down to open the door for her. Ate bee hoon today soup one lol. Ok it was quite nice esp the fish cake. Do house chores and haiz, again got scolded. Throw rubbish forget close door...cut open the new packet of soap powder forget to throw it away...wash floor never wash clean...keep on smsing(only 1 only then she start nagging already).

Couldnt stand it anymore so just went up and went online to type an entry. I was also chatting to Sing Xuan at the same time. She came up and started nagging again.

"ask you do thing only so hard, is it really so difficult. How about your maths tuition, still want to fo or not. Can you next time open the window so can ventilate the place." It just goes on and on. I ignored all she said while i was chatting online and typing my entry. She got so pissed she slammed my keyboard and turned off my power. It was totally over the LINE. I slammed the chair and walked into my room. She shouted at me to come back there and i walked over pissed. She shouted and me and obviously being short tempered i shouted at her back again. She pointed a finger at me to ask me to shut up, not to argue or answer. I was like wtf la, i answer also wrong, dont answer also wrong. What you want me to do, follow you around like a dog ah...

She totally just stood there and scolded me and my sis is another ass, keep adding onto things. She thinks its damn fun is it, let her be the one getting scolded la. My father came back and i was called down to talk to him.

He told me that he give me everything and he never gives me restriction. What more do i want... I wanted to say that he only dont give a damn to what i do but i chose to keep quiet. It was then my tears started rolling down my cheeks. I told him. "I know you all brought me up, i know i have to listen to all of you because im the youngest in the family but have you all ever thought about me...am i not human at all?"

I just totally covering my face while tears keep flowing down my cheeks. Its been so long, so so long since i have cried. I always believe that im super strong, i have the power of will to drive me along but im wrong, everything just came out....in tears. I feel so weak, so useless and just hopeless. Its not that i never cried before but its so long and i didnt wanted to cry. I held it back but i guess the eyes just blasted it out. Nvm, i just have to train until i break down today, its the way i always draw all my energy to... i know its not good but i dont have a choice. Im sry if i have done this, i know many ppl care about me. I cant let ppl hear the weak side of me...i will not cry in front of anybody...i dont wanna be branded as a weakling...

Im sry ppl...if im not the way i am in school or while im talking, pls forgive me. I didnt choose to be like this.

Signing off,
the helpless wind

I didnt know i was such a person...until today

Went to look for houses today. My mum wants to sell the current house. The houses im seeing is near hougang mall block 411 and 404. So near... oh my...didnt really expecting that to happen.

What i found out today:
1) I think im not used to live in a small house anymore
2) I think im a spoilt brat
3) I wont be able to survive without money
4) My house is way larger and bigger than ordinary houses
5) The hdb flat is only as big as my living room
6) I love my house so much
7) I really treasure all my friends and hope they will be there for me always

It was until today where i really opened up my mind to look at things. Its not always true that im happy-go-lucky and everything in my life just goes well. I dont have problems with friends but i have many problems in my studies and also my family life. Not everything in life is as perfect. I knew everyone will have problem someway or the other. It is not how you solve the problem but is how to cope with the problem and the way to deal it that will bring the slightest effect in your life. I can say that problems will surely bring a little impact in your life, if anyone say that they dont bother at all....thats all bullshit.

Having a person to support you all the way is a very good thing. There are 2 ways to build bonds. One is by time e.g weiliang, bai qun and charles. I known wl and charles since primary school and bai qun during sec 2. We hang out very often and i give them all my trust. I know that even if they would to tell me something i didnt wanted to hear, it was for my own good because they only want the best for me. I may seem annoyed or irritated but i really accept and respect their words. Me too, sometimes tell them things that is not really nice but they somehow accepted what i say and did what they were suppose to. The other bond is by mutual understanding. I could say this is just a special feeling that bonds people together. It may be due to first impression or maybe just things we do have similarity. I want to name a person but haha, nvm. Its just good that person know who he/she is lol.

Thats all for today but i guess i will be having another entry tonight. Study hard everybody and do well for your mid years. Ok lets have a random ending. I LOVE YOU.

Signing off,
the open wind

Boring day la today

Haiz, went school early in the morning at 9am... Was quite boring and i suppose everybody didnt really benefitted by the lesson. He goes through 10 questions in 1 HOUR. 1 HOUR ppl, thats like 1/24/7/4/12/75 of my life wasted. Oh man, how do i get it back? Ok for the explanation of that deduced formula lol. 1 hour of 24 hours, 1 day of a week, 4 weeks in a month, 12 months in a year and i estimate to live until the age of 75 so yea this is it lol. Suddenly i feel that my life is really short. I already spent mmmm 16 years and 3 months and 28 days. Ok better not elaborate or not this entry will be freaking boring like the title lol.

After school went to eat with my friends in J8. Ate KFC and the queue was really long. Ok this was the first time i ever talked to Ming Han because he know me i know him but we never seem to chat. Maybe because got nothing to chat. Talked about school, Quay being nice? and many more lol. Shi rui and Benjamin was there too haha. I ate the slowest, why? because im trying to waste time to see who coming along later for the sun's signature later at 1.30pm. They all went and i have no choice but to go to the library. It was only about 12 i think and i have about 1 hour plus to wander around. Went library, found myself some nice books and i sat there to read. Time really fly realy fast while i was so indulged in my books. Trudy called ask me whether i wanna meet at bread talk. Ok i didnt know she was coming also and how the hell she know im there in j8? Then later went yoshi to meet Guo Dong and Clarence. Trudy, Delphine and Santy(appear and disappear) later meet us there too. Oh ya, ee keat also.

Went to j8 the extra land area from the second floor and i went there too to take a look. Ok the barricade was really very long. I think they are expecting many fans but to their dismay...only half was filled when the thing started i guess. So little ppl only la...lucky i never stupid stupid wait in the queue with them lol but i guess they were having a great time there. Sorry guys, couldnt stay any longer as my mum is really not happy that i have been hanging out too much lately.

Sonia smsed since morning and my phone went dead...ok didnt charge last night because i waited for a phone call then forget to charge la lol. Fell alseep in the afternoon because yesterday slept quite late and morning wake up too early lol. Slept at around 3.55pm then wake up at 6.40pm. Shiok man i tell you but my mum had to scold me and nag to wake me up lol. Haiyah, same things la, sell house la, controlling me la, ask me study la and a lot of things la. I think im gonna get immune to her words and most likely just treat it as normal singing i guess but hey i still respect her a lot. I can say she really cares a lot for me and i love her a lot too. If she is not there, i think i will never be able to survive. She is the best mum anyone can ever have.

Went to eat curry fish head and bought new contact lens. Stupid focus, make my eye bleed only. Bought acuvue today and i was given 10 sets free because the degree for my left eye cannot get so give me sample first because i got training and i needed lens or not i cannot see when i spar lol. Today nothing much happen la. Ok sorry again because i really cant attend tmr's service. Im really not into the service thing, you all have to understand, i only attend for the fun. Ok maybe cell group meeting i will join you all because got games and free food right? I dont wanna pay money hor lol. Yea thats all for today i guess and my computer died again today because of some technical error. Haiz, need to bring it for repair again on monday. Waste so much of my time la. Ok ok and things went out fine ok very fine ok very good ok nvm lol.

Signing off,
the bored wind

A shocker, a warmer and all stun...

Ok today i took a ss test in the afternoon. It was freaking easy because the teacher told us what she was going to test and i only glance through the textbook and the revision kit once in the morning. I really love my eye and photogenic mind that gives me the speed to write down all the points in the given time. Most ppl who studied only manage to finish 3/5 points and i finished all. I was so happy la, my hands were pain after i finished writing but the sense of achievement was great.

Oh ya, about the test on e maths on thursday. Minimum -8 maximum -15 so yea still can get at least 35/50 which is very good already because i wasnt really good at maths since sec 3. Ok this credit really have to go to Trudy. If she did not painstakingly teach me for 4 hours, i wouldnt have understand all the things about e maths topic. Delphine ask me to join the talk on Sermon the Mount? ok im not sure whether i spelt it correctly but im kinda busy tmr and my mum is not really happy about me going out so often. So yea, im sry but i promise i will be at least attending once for the cell group meeting just so have some fun and relax myself.

Mmmm, for today, after school went home, faster change and went to plaza singapura. Met up with Sonia and Ph. Ok, i was quite shock when i saw Ph. Her crappiness level was super super high or should i say, surpass the level of extreme. She totally was random and she sings horribly. Hopes she doesnt see this or i will get killed lol. Bought a ticket at 4pm for spiderman 3 but only 2 ppl. Ph had to go home, ok i was quite relief because she was getting too random. Went arcade before entering the movie but hey, i was playing time crisis there myself...self entertainment. Just 1 credit and i finish the whole game...

The movie was cool but got shocked a few times because of some sudden part like venom in the taxi, Harry attacking MJ and Sandman thrashing the police. One part where it suppose to be happy, a kid started crying and everybody was turning to see who was that. The last part where Harry died and Peter Parker wanted to cry, his lips were vibrating so much that it look like he got muscle spacism and everyone was laughing and that emotional part. Ok i laughed too. Before the movie ended, one guy kinda scolded vulgarities at a group of boys. They were talking too loudy and the guy just shouted: " can you all just shut the F*** up?" then suddenly the whole cinema just went silent. That was quite good but mmmm, a bit scary too. Warm hands too and i wasnt afraid of cold, more afraid of hot i guess.

Went to Serangoon Garden to have my dinner. Ordered a bowl of noodle and Sonia ordered dessert(got spell wrongly?) Walked her to the bus stop after that i waited for the bus to come. It was quite a while but it was still quite fun. Shocking ppl, just shocking (ok nvm, this part is just shocking?) haha.

Training was freaking crazy today. Spar like so many times and my leg is swollen. I iced my leg but i still walk like a cripple. I believe training is good for myself and even though i get injuries very often but i think its quite ok because things that doesnt kill you makes you stronger. Tmr still have physics la in school, i scared i cannot walk there tmr. Dont pain tmr ok leg... ty lol. Had fun today and remember to take care of yourself. Accident prone or approaching accidents at your own risk still brings out pain and injuries so just remember to take care and yea, be happy in everything you do.

Signing off,
The shocking wind

Maths is nice but time IS NOT

Haiz, the paper was easy, the questions all i know how to do but but but no time... TIME la TIME la. Stupid la, i couldnt see the clock in the hall because there was a vision block at my right side of my eyes.

Ok, i hate focus daily(contact lens brand) Why? its because it will stick in the eyes. And because of this, i have to dig it out yesterday. Accidentally poke my eye and my right eye bleed. Pain and got blood clog. Ok not sure how long it will take to cure but i think i have to live with it now since it will be there for quite long.

Im tired, very tired and im confuse about words i heard yesterday. I kinda feel that im not suppose to be there or should i say im not sure if you have thought of things properly. Mmmm, need more time? need more motivation? need more reason? Anything also can lol. Tmr going to watch 200 pound beauty at mmmm, ok dont know where but i think that show is super nice.

Later got spongebob YES YES YES, oh ya later still got training or should i say exam condition style grading first mmm or audition or testing or lol nvm. I hope i can make it and i will be taking another examination very soon. Everybody take care of your eyes, yourself and everything.

Im glad i have friends, im glad i went to the church and im glad i know a lot of people. Wanna name them but hey, it gets boring if i keep saying and saying who are they lol. I think i just have to be truthful to everything and everything will come into place. Hey, must tag my blog le or not its kinda boring.

Signing off,
weird blowing wind

I was tired, i was troubled and i am sry everybody

I went to City Harvest Church again because i was invited to participate the labour day aka family day. There was free food, free fame, concert from sun and milk. Ok the concert was super cool and there is a dance from the old school that had been created by one of the member from the church and its super nice i tell you. Didnt regret going there at all.

Oh ya, i went there at 10 and studied to 2. Thanks Trudy, really helped a lot, i wish you could see this blog but i think you are also very busy with your work. Really thanks a lot. 2pm is when we met up with the rest of the cell group members and then went into the concert. Pop a lot of balloon, almost lost my voice but really had a lot of fun.

Finished at 6.30 and we queue up for the japanese pizza. The queue did not look very long but i queued up for 2 HOURS, my my, i wasnt tired at all however. Ok lucky got Trudy, and 2 more of her friends that i just got to know. Ok i finally feel so young there because all of them are 18,19 and 20 haha. Got my food around 8.45 which is super late la. Ate already then i must straight away rush home. why? because my mum keep nagging and my dad keep scolding also, my sis another one la. Its just so irritating, i just wanted to wander around and wish that i was all alone. But my friends were just very caring and they really are concern about what was happening. First is Trudi, she accompanied me to the mrt and to paya lebar where she continued her journey to bishan. Next was Delphine, she smsed me haha but i not sure how she got my number, i think its from Santy. She told me to understand what immense pressure my parents are experiencing and to understand them more. I try i try but i not sure whether can or not. Lastly is Sonia, she called me and chatted while i was on my way home or should i say on my way near home or close to home or somewhere that is mmmm...nvm lol.

Thank you everybody, Sonia, Trudy and Delphine. Thank you for being with me, thank you for encouraging me and thank you for everything. If its not for you all, i will be really alone lol.

Signing off,
the glad wind

The pain is unbearable

The usual stuff, went school and yea Tedmond got maked fun again. He was really piss so he stood up and told Zi xiong off: "One day, i tell you, you will go to the mirror and say that, OH MY GOD, IM FAT!!!!"

Zi xiong laughed and reply: "Oh my Tedmond, you everyday go to the mirror and say, OH MY GOD, IM STILL FAT!!!"

Everyone started laughing and i tell you our teacher also join in la: "Tedmond, you will wake up one day and found out that......your bed break lol."

Everyone really cannot stop laughing la. Ok today after school was stupid. Some of them played ball and pingpong and so stupidly, i got hit... scrapped my leg and i think i hit my back... Ok it doesnt hurt but my leg bleed a bit.

Went home and went to a temple later, prayed and went back home. While studying, i was training up too. Very vigorously i can say. Push ups, sit ups and more. Running around also and here it was.... the pain came... SO PAIN SO PAIN THE PAIN IS SO SO SO .... it was on the back.

Ok, i dont know what to say but oh my its just so pain. Nvm, at least somebody cared. Went down and took some pain killers and walla, the pain slowly subsided. On the phone now with the person who care a lot. Glad that at least somebody know. Tmr is another fun day i think. Going to study with my friend at Singapore expo hall 3 coffee bean area in the morning at around 10am and then later having a carnival at 2. So yea yea yea, will be fun fun fun and more fun. Cant wait to see the friends i just know in church but hey... i dont wanna join the cellgroup hor, i cant be commited in it too. Im a busy person and i dont really have the heart to believe in god, im sorry if i say that, dont take it to heart ok ppl.

Ok thats all for today, signing off,
the thankful wind